Letters I never sent V

Ólorun duro tì mí

Oct 03, 2025

To the one who paid a price for me. To the one who calls me precious.

1 Corinthians 16:14 “Do everything in love”

I’ve been in love. For a long time I spoke about love. For ages I wrote about love. I wrote about longing, desire and want. I thought I’ve understood it in depths. How it’s reflected in everything I ever am. I’ve loved in actions and in truth. I’ve loved that neighbor that gossips about me down the street. I’ve seen my brother and sister in red and I’ve given. I’ve loved my enemies and prayed for those who persecuted me. I’ve loved my father despite the spit and curses, words he’s spoken out of anger. I’ve loved my sister, and that friend that never stops hurting me. Maybe that’s where I deceived myself.

It can never be compared to yours. I only love because you first loved me. I’ve sinned and betrayed the love you’ve shown me. Yet many waters cannot quench your love for me, neither can flood drown it. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else is all creation, will be able to separate me from your love.

Ó duró tì mí

(You stayed with me)

If there’s one thing I’m sure of is, I’m undeserving of your priceless love, I’ve never been worthy but you found me worthy enough.

I may have lost my way. I did walk away from everything. I’ve been distant and disconnected, I never knew you were sitting with me through it.

Ó dí mí mu

(You held me)

I’ve tried to pray but the words never come out, never knew you were listening to my silence. In your eyes I am still yours but I couldn’t see it.

Ó tu mí lárá

(You comforted me)

I was looking for me, I was searching and I found you. Despite my insecurities that made me uncertain. You showed me I was deserving of love. You found me and showed me light when my mind was blinded with confusion. You showed me “ME”. My eyes are now enlightened and now I am illuminated, because I’m not just a bearer of your light but light itself.

Matthew 28:20 “and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age”

Immediately I tore the old page and wrote on a new one. How I went through deep waters and you were with me. How I never asked but you knew the needs inscribed in my heart. How my reflection was the scariest thing I’d see, yet you hugged and said “you’re my beloved, in whom I am well pleased”.

You were doing a work in me, purifying me, edifying my soul, reviving my lost faith and filling me up with overflowing peace. A cleansing I didn’t know I needed. You seated with me in my sins, and told me I’m loved and perfect in your eyes. It’s been a mystery unseen, a feeling unfelt, an all consuming desire that ravages my soul.

Jeremiah 31:3 “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I’ve never quit loving you. I’ve drawn you with unfailing kindness. Expect love, love, and more love!”

And it feels really good to know…

I was never an afterthought.

You’ll be the one my heart will continually yearn for. You’ll be the one my soul screams for. You’ll be the one I’ll be build an altar for. You’ll be the one I thirst for, the one I long for, the one my spirit desires.

The one I’d gladly talk about to the wind, the sea, and every living thing that doesn’t know of your existence, because they deserve to know. They deserve to express this love I’ve never stopped experiencing.

You’re here with me. You’re mine and I’m yours. You’re my God till death for eternity! Forever and always.

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze”

Yours sincerely,

Mauhhh 💋